yep, i’m the village idiot…not proud to admit it…but damn kids, i truly am an idiot and, worse, i’m my own worst enemy…can you say self-sabatoge?

at the moment, i’m not of a mind to divulge any gory details…suffice it to say, i did the same stupid thing i always do…and then i’m going to let you use your imagination…those of you who know me well are probably a step ahead shaking your head and saying, “damn is she ever going to learn?” good damn question…

the ridiculous thing is i’m an intelligent girl who knows better…they say insanity is doing the same thing over and over hoping for a different result…nowhere has this been more true than in dating/sex/relationships…we fall for the wrong guy, let our libido (or a couple of glasses of wine) rule rather than our heads ala he’s just not that into to you…WTF???, fall for the unavailable ones, yada, yada…you get the picture…all those stupid mistakes we’ve made in our past relationships or encounters or whatever the hell…insanity? yep, i must truly be insane…

so how to break the pattern? just when i thought i had, i realize i obviously haven’t or i woudn’t keep kicking myself in the ass…”dumbass, dumbass”…and guess what? i have no answer…not even a smartass one…kinda goes back to that old hand on the burner thing…even a child knows better than to stick his hand on a hot burner more than once…and yet full grown adults cannot seem to figure it out…how to teach an old dog new tricks…hmmm, maybe that’s more applicable…in any case, HELP! if you have suggestions, know a damn good hypnotist, or maybe just a really good shrink, please let me know…

oh and if you’re truly a glutton, and are extremely interested in the gory details, shoot me an email…we’ll talk privately…